Posted by Dinah on December 13, 2002, at 18:41:40
In reply to Re: Guilt » NikkiT2, posted by Dinah on December 13, 2002, at 18:26:20
After writing all that, I had a memory of that period of my life and I actually did threaten to kill myself if I didn't get a cat. There was a huge hysterical scene, with my psychiatrist called.
And actually I didn't give a flying fig if I got a cat. What I was trying to say was that I was miserable, I didn't see how I could continue to bear the life I was leading and how I wanted out. The cat was just the lightning rod for the fury and rage that I felt over everything else in my life.
I can see how everyone in my life probably thought it was a manipulative attempt to get a cat. I just didn't have the words to say what I needed to say, and they didn't have the ears to hear it.
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