Posted by tabitha on June 29, 2002, at 15:21:20
In reply to enough fun, back to me and my pain..., posted by tabitha on June 28, 2002, at 3:46:52
Trying to let go of Alan, did a whole therapy session on it, ended up crying about dreams I'd had lately about my (dead) mother.Got to these ideas in my journal. Alan was there right after her death. She left my life, Alan came in. Alan was like compensation for her loss. So (my irrational thinking goes) I'm cosmically entitled to keep him forever. Without Alan there is only grief. (Must have been a big burden to Alan to replace my mother for me, if he sensed it at all)
More sadness about her loss. Really endless.
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