Posted by sid on March 18, 2002, at 18:57:04
Hello it's me again...
I'm in the back to-normal-mode still... trying to get my sh.. together, back to a somewhat normal life. In my way though: my weight! My God, what has depression done to me? My body likes it too; it doesn't want to lose the weight without a fight. I think I'll have to go on a real diet and exercise like there's no tomorrow in order to lose the extra pounds (50 of them!). Arghhh.
I'm glad to feel better, except when I walk in front of a mirror and I perceive reality better than before: Geez I'm fat! Who is that? I'm somewhere in there, I know it, but where? I'm just realizing how serious my weight problem has become over the years, and that if I want to pretend to be healthy, I must lose the 50 pounds. Plus, as you can imagine, I don't look my best; it's a bit embarrassing. I lost 7 pounds on Effexor XR in my first month, but I stayed the same since then. Not enough!
Anyway... just had to voice this. I'm seeing my doc this week and we'll be having the fat talk. Something has got to happen - a ditetician could help perhaps? If I was rich I'd go for a personal trainer, but back to reality! Some exercise class other than my yoga class I guess - like aerobics? Anyone in the same boat? The task is daunting, perhaps we could exchange tips, info, encouragements?
- sid
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