Posted by corafree on July 11, 2006, at 10:40:46
In reply to Re: Searching Deeply *trigger domestic violence* » corafree, posted by AuntieMel on July 11, 2006, at 9:53:32
You're right, I feel much better, and I think it has a lot to do with 'telling myself the truth' re: what I really think of him.
I've 'acted too civil' too long.
I have three children Auntie Mel. The two that are not yet married are living with him! His house is only about a mile away from this condo I rent from my mother.
And, one of them has two babies.
So, there are four of my loved ones with him!
Of course, 'he flaunts this' in my presence! (Yep, I do have to occasionally see him.)
This presents 'a conflict' I don't seem to be handling well at all, in making my way towards 'that success'.
All three of them know .....
I'm lonely and not adjusting well to this new town, a move which resulted from my Dad's passing (a little over two years now), and the accompanying literal loss of all my family of origin. After he died, my mother sort of 'took my life away from me'. She 'sold both of my homes', a move supported by my siblings, and bought this condo near my children, for me to rent from her. She built herself a new one near my siblings in another State. I am one of five, they closest to my mother, and I to my father. This past weekend, none of my three children came over to visit me, now that I am living so close to them.(?) My mother knew I didn't want to move here, but she wanted $ from old condo (Value went up!) to build another house. I did what the Ten Commandments say to do. Get the picture?
I'm embarrassed to say it, but I have no IRL friends 'in my life' currently.
So, I'm ultimately minus my father, two homes, my comfort zone, my siblings, and now it feels like 'my children'?!
I'm sorry if I've repeated myself.
All in all, w/ this new realization, these hurdles have me stumbling. I think that's what I'm trying to say. Sorry so lengthy.
tks4support, cf
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