Posted by alexandra_k on February 1, 2006, at 22:02:11
In reply to Re: I am in a funny mood... » alexandra_k, posted by cricket on February 1, 2006, at 15:05:20
> I haven't been reading here and had no idea how bad you were feeling.
thats okay. it will pass...
i think... it is like... there is something about the human condition where we are always complaining. maybe because... we are always striving. the *pursuit* of happiness... and what is happiness anyways? i guess most people think of it as a hedonistic buzz that couldn't possibly be maintained. and then there are all the things that we believe will make us happy because of marketing and advertising and glossy magazines etc.
i like the eastern thought... contentment. the kind of feeling that you can access in the moment. there is a story about this guy (can't remember his name) in ancient greece. a famous stoic. he used to live in a barrel. alexander the great heard about this guy and he went to visit him. he said 'i shall give you anything at all - what would you like?' the guy said 'can you move please, you are blocking the sun'.
:-)
i like that.
i used to chat to my t about that. about happiness and what happiness might be and what i meant by happiness. because one of the things i wanted was to feel happier. and i told her the story about the stoic. and we talked about whether it was possible for a leper starving in india to be happy (in that sense). and we talked about the relationship between the environment and the effect that has on mood and on viewing the world in a non-negative way...
i think there must be a middle ground...
> Angry at how bad my life has been and how every year it just keeps getting worse. In fact, sometimes I think my childhood was the best time of my life because then I thought I just had to stay alive and get out of there and then everything would be fine.yeah. i used to think that too. when i was a kid i thought everything would be fine and i would be happy if only i could get away from my mother. now i realise... that might well be true. but getting away from her physically simply isn't enough because she has found her way into my head and my emotional responses.
> Don't despair Alex. Please don't. It makes me so sad.
i'll try not to. it is hard sometimes.
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