Posted by cricket on February 1, 2006, at 15:05:20
In reply to Re: I am in a funny mood..., posted by alexandra_k on January 31, 2006, at 23:30:19
(((((Alex)))))
I haven't been reading here and had no idea how bad you were feeling.
I'm so sorry.
> i think it is supposed to help...
> to think of those less fortunate
> when you start to feel deprived
> when you start to feel a sense of entitlement.
> it is something i struggle with...It is hard. I mean I know that I am lucky too. I have enough food and a functional body and brain.
But I get angry too. Angry that I am surrounded by people who are swimming in money even by US standards and all they do is complain -
my husband doesn't put the cap on the toothpaste
I had to cook dinner
I had to fire the housekeeper
the school is not stimulating my child
i can't find shoes for the wedding
it's raining/cold/hot
since we bought the country house we're not going to Europe this summerSo it is hard
And I think that what is wrong with these people? Is it that they have it so good that they think they have to complain or it will go away.And I get angry too.
Angry at how bad my life has been and how every year it just keeps getting worse. In fact, sometimes I think my childhood was the best time of my life because then I thought I just had to stay alive and get out of there and then everything would be fine.
Well I did manage to stay alive and I did get out of there but nothing has ever been fine since then.
And yes, I know I've made many mistakes in my life and I guess it's the result of those bad, bad decisions that I am living with right now.
> i think people have rights to certain things...
> but rights entail duties
> so if people have rights to certain things...
> then that entails other people have duties to provide
> and...
> i think that is right
> but most of the world would not agree with me
>
> :-(
>
> and thinking on it too much...
> i do despair
> maybe it is that my mood infects things rather
> or maybe it is the reflecting on it...
> on others who are worse off...
> that leads me to despair
> i despair for myself much of the time
> how can i not despair for others who are worse off?
> i don't understand.Don't despair Alex. Please don't. It makes me so sad.
You are almost off to a new place. And you will be studying new things and giving us your thoughts on them and we (all of us, the world) need those thoughts.
poster:cricket
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