Posted by Susan47 on May 20, 2005, at 18:32:38
In reply to Re: (((SUSAN47)))- little trigger, maybe, posted by sunny10 on May 20, 2005, at 12:27:49
So many things in my mind right now (unbelievable.. do I think?) it's been such an incredible two weeks. I found my therapist to be a bit condescending as well, but then I found men in general to be condescending, and that was all about the way I feel about me, so it's hard to say if it was transference or not.. but I think I know what you mean.. my T said stuff to me about how he thought I was strong, and smart, blahblahblah and that's just what I'm thinking, you know, yes, sure, you don't know the cost of it to me, though.
To do what I had to do.. to raise my child alone when his Other Biological Unit decided he couldn't love us. Ten years alone, you know, I was talking to myself, I mean Really, my brain was mush, for that entire time, and when I met my last SO he was so incredibly caring, considerate, and kind, that I decided, I'm resting here for awhile. And that was another mistake that led to another ten years of absolute grief and trauma, and I ended up becoming OCD again, as I was before in my life.. this time it was much, much worse though, and I really completely lost my marbles, and here's this lovely put-together man who's sitting there telling me how well he thought I was doing.
Jesus.
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