Posted by sunny10 on May 20, 2005, at 12:27:49
In reply to Re: ((((((((((SUSAN47)))))))), posted by Susan47 on May 20, 2005, at 9:15:03
still in the "tell me your life story" beginning phase...
It's funny, I read it all the time here,and it's true. It DOES feel like the T's are wondering what we're doing in their offices when we know, logically, the right ways to act/react. They just don't seem to understand that just because we've been in therapy long enough to know doesn't mean we DO them, or that we may DO them, but at great emotional cost to us...
I was slightly disgusted, actually, when the new T praised me for being wise enough to let my son live full time at his dad's. She said she knew it was hard to let him go, and that she was proud of me for being so strong, but I'm not strong at all-everyday it costs me a great deal emotionally...
They never seem to understand how much energy it takes to pretend to be strong when I'm not...and how anxious it makes me to keep up the facade- always afraid it will drop and people will see me for the weakling I really am.
It's why I am always so tired that death seems preferable a great deal of the time.
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