Posted by Susan47 on May 1, 2005, at 17:01:42
In reply to Re: ReFeeling sexual, Me too (whine) » Susan47, posted by alesta on May 1, 2005, at 14:16:31
No I know and I'm living that, alesta, I'm learning to be happy with me. I definitely am not a love addict, I would've had to have been in love to be that, by definition. I haven't ever been truly in love with anyone before, can you believe, not even my children? Not until after this last male therapist of mine, my god. Somehow, and I know this sounds sappy and has a fairytale quality, okay, but somehow the only way I can express it now is he wove a spell. Maybe not realizing it, maybe that's his magic, or maybe he does practice his art, on people like me. That must be his success. Anyway, enough of that. About being open to men right now, you say you aren't, and in many ways I'm not either, in fact, I haven't met a man I'm interested in saying more than two words to, in ages. And flirting is fun, even when I know I look like an easy time and the guy is just trying out his luck. Then it's easiest to walk away. 'Cause they're not the serious type. I really need the serious type, fun but serious, smart, no pretense. 99% of the men in this world base their entire existence on the pretense. My ex- calls it his "persona". Pppfffffft. In fact, you know the kind of guy who walks around thinking he's really hot? You can see them a hundred yards away, and it doesn't matter how nice he turns out to be, his attitude is a total turn-off. And there isn't anything but Life that will take that out of a man. Once that's out of him, but he still cares about who he is, he's hot. I knew a man like that, once. He was in my mind I think. I made him up, but wow, was he ever Wonderful. Mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm
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