Posted by Susan47 on May 1, 2005, at 13:08:54
In reply to Re: ReFeeling sexual, Me too (whine) » Susan47, posted by alesta on May 1, 2005, at 10:06:24
The man who hit on you was probably fairly comfortable with women and used to seeing us without the goop. I love the goop. Sometimes when I'm feeling really good I put lots on, because it matches my mood. Sometimes less, I like that about being a woman, I can experiment a bit with different looks. A bit, because I'm still always me, no plastic surgery... yet. Aaah. Life has many wonderful options. Anyway did you respond to the hit? Because I'm finding the less afraid I am of men, the more open they are too. It's nice. I used to be so afraid of men. Intimidated by them.
I'm glad you're feeling okay about being alone. Mostly I'm okay with it, but when I'm sexual and/or emotional it's horrible. Those are the days I need a male T. I mean, really. I'm going to search out another male therapist. Because I need one. Badly. As soon as I've done my EMDR with this female, I'm going to make an appointment this week. Get these rapes taken off me. They've been part of me for too long. And some of the stuff that goes with being a woman, and the reproductive aspect of our bodies which can be so devastating. Wonderful too, but still. Everything I've been through has added shadows to my soul. I need to be rid of them. Thanks, Alesta, for being here for me too. I notice you were drinking the other night. How'd you feel the next day BTW? I used to get the hangover you-know-what's. I never drink excessively anymore, it's too depressing. :-)
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