Posted by Damos on April 24, 2005, at 5:11:11
In reply to Re: And... » 10derHeart, posted by alexandra_k on April 24, 2005, at 0:33:52
> WOW! I CAN'T BELIEVE I MISSED THAT!!!
Big huh> Really.
Would we kid about a thing like that?> I missed the whole thread.
You had more importnt things to worry about> Thanks for the link :-)
> Gosh peoples, thats a long time...
> Wow.
> I really long time.
OH YEAH!!!!!!> Yup. I don't know that I could wait that long. Really.
I really hope you don't have too.
> Hmm. I'm not sure. I think there are two aspects (1) recreation (2) love. I would probably prefer the latter - but most of my issues are around that. I guess I'm more thinking of the first one at the mo...My difficulties with myself never allowed me to be in a place were it could be 'just for fun'. Even where I thought there was love it was like diving into a frozen lake and holding my breath and the panic and trying not to loose consciousness before I found a way back through the surface of the ice.
> Mmm. Can be fun though :-)
There's anice thought :-)
> Mmm. I imagine there is something to be said for that too... I don't know. I don't believe anyone would ever really love me. (Oh, I do) I don't believe I am capable of really loving another. (This is a fear we have in common then) Especially the latter. I really don't think that I am. That saddens me. But there it is. (Not only saddens me, but scares me, all I can tell you alex is that I believe I am more able to love someone now than I have ever been in my life, at least you've got a 14 year head start)
>
> XXXX(((((10derHeart)))))XXXX
> XXXX(((((Alex)))))XXXX
Hope things work out for you too.
poster:Damos
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