Posted by AdaGrace on December 23, 2004, at 19:43:04
In reply to » Ada » ...can you picture your Dad's demons?, posted by 64bowtie on December 23, 2004, at 17:42:46
Yes Rod, I do see his demons.
When my mother was killed, and he survived, I was the chosen one to comfort him in the hospital while my other sibling dialed the needed numbers. (After I had a complete colapse on the cold tile floor) I went to his side, and for the first time I heard my father cry. The next words out of his mouth was, "I bet you wish it was me". I said "No, Dad, I love you." Truth is, I did wish it was him and to this day, still wish it was him and I struggle with that feeling daily. But I see now, that even though it was too late, he realized that our mother showed us much more love than he ever did and therefore received more from us than he did. It hurt him, but he didn't know how to show it. He never gave her flowers in life, but now makes sure every holiday is celebrated with roses on her grave. How sad. How very sad to realize after someone is gone forever that you didn't treat them like you should......I survive....I deal.....I live with it. He's not as bad as he thinks he is. or as we think he is.AdaGrace
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