Posted by AdaGrace on October 15, 2004, at 19:57:21
In reply to Re: We Have Contact, posted by dazedandconfused on October 15, 2004, at 17:30:49
First thing I learned in therapy, and it only took three visits.
I really do believe that.
When my husband told me the other night that I was F*ing nuts and belonged in the looney bin, I was hurt, but you know, I got over it.
I am not responsible for other peoples happyness.
The thing is...I know the other guy loves me. In my heart I know it. I also know that he can't deal with me at the moment, and he feels bad about that, I know that too. He feels bad about the things we have gone through, but he is trying to save his own sanity any way he can.....and me being upset with him or telling him how bad he has hurt me serves no purpose. All I can do now is be his friend if he wants that, if he doesn't, the I will have to learn how to let go. For now I don't choose to do that. He asked me not to, and I intend to keep my promise.
You know, once he told me he would never stop loving me, even if I told him to get lost. I believe that, and that keeps me going. I told him the same thing. I asked him a while ago how he thought I felt about him and he said, he knew that I was deeply deeply in love with him. He know how I feel. I don't need to keep reminding him. Things will either work out or they won't...
For now I will continue to try to forge a friendship with him if nothing else. He was my best friend for 4 years as well as my lover, and I feel conected to him on a much higher plane than I do or ever have felt with anyone else.
It doesn't matter who comes in and out of our lives. He will always have my heart. He knows that, and I know that.
God, I feel so much better today about things. I really do.....
poster:AdaGrace
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