Posted by AdaGrace on October 15, 2004, at 11:53:45
Now what do I do? He finally contacted me, albeit the first in 5 weeks......and all that he said, (which couldn't even be written down in an e-mail, or said in a message in voice mail, and especially not live and in person on the phone), but all that was said was
"glad you are doing better"
"I can't talk as much as I want to"
"I miss you"
"thank you for not calling because it wouldn't be good.""thank you for not calling"
How do you respond to someone who thanks you for leaving them alone with their new love? Not once, but twice I was thanked for not calling him.Funny thing is I did call that next day (I hadn't gotten the offline message just yet) I used the phone card and didn't leave a message, just wanted to see if her answering machine was still in use.....of course it was.
How do I feel? How do I react? Is this what is supposed to be happening? Is he reaching out to my request to remain friends? Or was he just having a drunk night and reminiscing? Do I respond? Do I ignore? Do I feel? I'm sorta numb at the moment thinking of it. I really don't think it means anything.....nothing really does it? or does it.
He knows how very baddly I am hurting, he has too, I've said it enough. He has to know that I crave words from him. He has to know that I check that dern e-mail every single day, sometimes 3 or 4 times a day. I couldn't get an e-mail?
I don't know what to do, what to think, what to feel.......
poster:AdaGrace
thread:403361
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