Posted by Miss Honeychurch on October 7, 2004, at 14:41:47
In reply to I've been very, very stupid, posted by AdaGrace on October 7, 2004, at 9:44:29
Ada,
Please don't beat yourself up over this. You're only human, with real emotions. Perhaps you can begin to look at this as a brand new day. Take the lack of communication from OG as a sign you are meant for bigger and better things. That OG is not the one for you. That OG never was "the one" for you, but merely a symptom of your depression and dissatisfaction with life and your marriage. Yes, OG was a symptom, and not the love of your life as you have imagined him to be.
You say you need to go back to therapy. Are you in a position to go back financially? Insurance wise? Geographically, etc.?
I hated my marriage as well when I started therapy. What I slowly realized however was that I didn't hate my marriage or my husband, I hated myself intensly. That hate would have eventually lead to a nervous breakdown.
Ada, we care about you here. I can only speak from my experience, but once I worked on myself, the hate for my husband and my marriage disappeared.
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