Posted by alexandra_k on October 11, 2013, at 19:14:52
In reply to Re: bad t » alexandra_k, posted by Poet on October 10, 2013, at 17:34:07
I don't know what she thinks. I guess I'll try and say something next week about how I felt hurt that she said we hadn't really got anything done. That I realized that she had an agenda - of doing a dx assessment. Of how that upset me because I don't feel like she heard what I had been saying about how dx doesn't actually mean anything to me. About how there is a LITTLE F*CK*NG SPEEL AT THE START OF THE DSM ABOUT HOW THE DX CATEGORIES ARE NOT TO BE USED TO DETERMINE TREATMENT ffs.
How... I was trying to share with her stuff that actually was hard for me. I did... Slightly raise / touch on stuff that was very very hard for me (e.g., I told her that I had been having trouble working - this is a very sensitive issue because I think she needs to see me as being extremely productive the only thing holding me back is this autistic thing I'm not at all sure she can handle anything to do with how I get blocked and figuring out how to free those up). I told her one of the helpful things my past t did was LISTEN TO ME and then SOMETIMES make comments on patterns he had observed...
I should tell her that one of the things I like about psychodynamic therapy is how the therapist is a little better at the SHUT THE F*CK UP strategy.
I...
I sometimes do things I later regret. I will approach the next session with an open mind and see what she has to say. She was looking a little... Harrassed? Last time. Maybe I got her on a bad day.
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