Posted by Annabelle Smith on December 13, 2010, at 21:11:27
In reply to Re: worse before better?, posted by emmanuel98 on December 13, 2010, at 21:01:37
Thanks, emmanuel.
I appreciate hearing your experience.I know that a lot of this is coming from me, but I really, really think he is the only one who can help me. I don't think any other person would do. I think the therapeutic relationship is created by both me and him, and with someone else, it will be totally different. I saw three awful counselors this summer and worked with another therapist at my university for a few months. He was skilled, and I felt a little of this with him, but not anywhere to the current degree.
I feel that my current therapist is extremely gifted. He is able to be attuned and I share this entire therapeutic process with him. I think I can only heal with his help. The problem is the unresolved sense. I am so afraid to leave and then always be in pursuit of this lost object, which was how it felt during the entire summer. I don't think another therapist could help that.
I do graduate in May, but I can stay in this city if I need to-- I might even remain as a graduate student at this university; or take a year off to heal and get better and stay in this city while I do that. I want more than anything to heal and be well, though I don't even know what that looks like.
I did hear what you said and appreciate it; I hope that what I am saying makes sense too.
poster:Annabelle Smith
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