Posted by Raindancer on March 27, 2010, at 19:38:25
In reply to Re: Why do I need my therapist? » Raindancer, posted by Dinah on March 27, 2010, at 10:44:50
Dinah, I'm so sorry it has been tough for you today. I can so relate to that terrified feeling and trying to rationalise it, but the feelings just don't go away and you feel as if they should. I usually see T every 3 weeks but he couldn't make it so this time it is four. I am now seeing him as an essential part of the Higher Dip I am doing, but it has been nine years on and off and he is such a vital part of my life.
Sometimes I find myself trying to put him down in my head so that the loss is not so great when the session ends, but that feels worse because I know it isn't true. I want to call and ask him to bring the next session forward, but I won't because I feel he would see it as weakness, and calling a T is not something we normally do here.
It's not really surprising that we feel so much fear. It is probably the most intimate of all relationships, even though T doesn't share as much, but we talk to our Ts about things that would never come into everyday conversation and as you know, get to know them really well. There is so much to lose. I have told my T about you and that I, too, want to hold on to his leg and never let go.
I hope things are better for you tomorrow. I'm so glad you replied. I feel very close to you as you have helped us all so much over the years and have so much insight and wisdom.
(((Dinah)))
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