Posted by backseatdriver on March 27, 2009, at 13:45:00
In reply to Re: does anyone remember feeling suicidal?? (trigger) » obsidian, posted by Kath on March 25, 2009, at 19:42:35
When I am suicidal, it is impossible to remember what it is like not to be suicidal. When I am not suicidal, the suicidal state becomes impossible to recall. The two mental states are mutually exclusive for me.
The suicidal state is scary largely because of the sheer extent of cognitive malfunction. I know I am not thinking clearly but I *feel* perfectly clear and rational. My empathic capacity is also markedly diminished.
The unsuicidal state is a relief, characterized by easy access to creative flow and empathy.
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