Posted by raisinb on March 25, 2009, at 15:38:28
In reply to does anyone remember feeling suicidal?? (trigger), posted by obsidian on March 24, 2009, at 22:36:50
Yeah, I was seriously suicidal for a few months last year.
As I began making plans I realized it was a monumental undertaking--getting all the right materials and making sure it worked. And I realized I'd have to go through all of it alone. That was a wake up call. It didn't scare me as much as make me so sad I almost couldn't move. I thought about all the times I'd tried so hard, all the things I'd done, and now it had come to this.
In the end I lived, but I very well might have died given what I went through. You're right, it IS hard to remember what it felt like.
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