Posted by lucie lu on December 22, 2008, at 21:10:48
In reply to I'm confused, posted by antigua3 on December 20, 2008, at 1:25:15
Antigua,
I wish I could just give you a big hug. First of all, my oldest left home last Xmas; she went to the other side of the planet, literally. Her plane left Jan 1, and all I could think about all through the holidays was about her leaving. It was so hard for me, I don't do "transitions" well, meaning I cried for days! She had a great time, was there for six months and now she's back but it feels like borrowed time. Having kids leave is sooo hard, even if that's what they (and you) were meant to do. So that sucks, number one. Number two is that your pdoc is also, I don't know what. How can he possibly believe you and he do not have a relationship?Even the postman, we have a relationship with. So what's with that? I suppose you could have tranference without a personal relationship. For instance, I could see Johnny Depp and me... and we've never even met ;)
I have always loved Christmas too. The memories are of people and things all too fallible and human, but nonetheless, the spirit of the holiday always somehow touched me. I feel richer for it.
About the meds... it has always taken me *eons* to clear something from my system once I've been on it for a while. I have yet to find a pdoc who understands that! But ask my DH... believe me, no one knows the range of responses that individuals can have when going off these meds. They simply have not tested for them. So believe in your experience, and act accordingly. If you feel something is the meds, and really not something else, than it probably is the meds. However, the way in which your mood changes due to going off the meds might manifest are likely to reflect your history. When it rains on a mountain, wouldn't the water find its way down through usual paths? So if you are feeling rageful or depressed, wouldn't it be likely to be along particular lines, in accordance with your history? They are probably not mutually exclusive.
p.s. thanks for the story (many threads above)about your kids and telling them things and letting them accept things about us. I think you must be a very good mom.
Lucie
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