Posted by Partlycloudy on November 30, 2008, at 12:04:37
In reply to I am hating what therapy is bring out in me : (, posted by SlugSlimersSoSlided on November 30, 2008, at 9:55:52
I'm having a different thought about this. That even though we may have had people accompany us during various times on our life journey, that we are, at the heart of it, either totally alone, or never really alone. (Oh, cripes, what am I trying to say here?)
That maybe the people that we WANT to have on our journey aren't the ones who are able to be there for us (like our mothers, or our spouses, or our siblings, or our friends). But, at the same time, we find unexpected partners in unlikely places - like I found my childhood teachers had filled the roles of affectionate parents for me - but I've only been able to see this in hindsight.
Maybe this is part of what your therapist is alluding to in promising that you are NOT alone. You might be able to find, in looking back, that you had some companionship in your journey up to this point. (I remember that you too had some good experiences with teachers in your past - they were able to substitute, at least in part, for what you lacked so sorely at home.) It's a matter, for me, in being able to take a different look at the same picture. Nothing in the picture changes except how I look at it.
Having said all all that, I definitely honor the emotions and feelings that you are experiencing right now. In many ways I think that you are MUCH further down the path of recovery than I am, and I can't help but feel that your capacity for being able to feel will continue to serve you well.
pc
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