Posted by Suedehead on October 28, 2008, at 23:30:24
I'm sitting here quietly freaking out about something I did earlier this evening, so I thought I'd see what you all think about it.
I had a dream about my T last night in which I broke into his house, thinking that he wasn't there. When I realized that he was home, I panicked and ran to my parents' house. I hoped that my T hadn't seen me, but when he showed up at the house a minute later, I knew that he had. I let him in and told him that we could talk upstairs in my parents' room if he wanted. He agreed and followed behind me. We sat down on the floor and I apologized for breaking into his house. I started to cry, and he put his arm around me and reassured me that he wasn't angry. We proceeded to have a really strange conversation about all sorts of seemingly random things--I asked him if he liked to garden, he told me that he owned a restaurant and played the piano, etc., etc. Somehow we ended up in my parents' bed together, naked. Suddenly, my mom came home, and I told him to hide under the blankets, which he did. When my mom came into the room, she asked me if there was someone in the bed with me, and just as I was about to insist that there wasn't, he stepped out of the closet on the other side of the room, fully dressed, and introduced himself, explaining that I'd had an emergency and he'd come over to make sure that I was alright. "I do this for all my patients," he said. My mom seemed totally fine with all this and invited him to stay for dinner. At this point I woke up.
For some reason this dream freaked me out a lot. I couldn't stop thinking about it all day, so I finally broke down and wrote him an email about it tonight. This was the first unsolicited email I've sent him, so I'm feeling a little bit like I've crossed some kind of boundary. I'm also worried that he'll think I'm being seductive (by telling him about a dream in which we're naked in my parents' bed together!), given that we've spent the last three weeks dealing with our mutual attraction to one another. He hasn't written back. I don't know. Maybe it was a mistake to send it? On the other hand, I *know* I wouldn't have been able to give him all of the details in person, so maybe it will prove to be productive? Ugh, therapy is so frustrating.
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