Posted by muffled on October 27, 2008, at 0:54:11
In reply to Re: I need a new me.... » muffled, posted by rskontos on October 22, 2008, at 19:14:25
> Well muffled, you at least made me laugh! get off for a wee bit and then go back to sh@t another day!
* :-o ;-)
> Yeah I know dd stuff takes time but I am not a naturally patient person and this whole spilling your guts out is not natural either to someone that has held all secrets my whole life.
*yeah, I great at avoiding myself...
> What i mean is I need to commit fully or not at all. I need to try harder and stop babbling each session but say something meaningful. I mean the conversation I have with him in my head so that I at least feel better. But then again I think would I feel better telling him these private thoughts. See what I mean about getting off that wee pot thing? I think myself in circles.
*thats why I write to T, cuz verbally i USELESS, and I have a terrible time w/sidetracking T on purpose when i get nervous. I am too good at that, wish I wasn't.
> I cannot committ to anything. School, volunteering, I can't find a job I am a) either qualified or b) I find interesting. I could teach but I don't want to. I am burned out on that.*sorry you feeling bad :-(
> I don't want to volunteer teaching either. I am just burned out on it.
>
> I am also burned out on me.* you depressed right now? or just a part?
> But thanks for the laugh.
*yeah, I love to laff.
> What stabilization and basic life skills. I only seem to possess survival ones.*I dunno, just CBT type basics.
Basics like having good map of system.
Of lsitening and trying to get along.
Of trying to sort out and work out internal conflicts.
Of doing things just for certain parts, so they can feel more accepted.
Or paying bills, and taking care of physical health.
Dealing w/any addictions stuff,
I dunno, stuff like that.
I myself, am fortunate, cuz it all a blank. I got nothing to 'work' on CEPT general stuff like I just wrote.
Rsk, you a good egg.
What does the sh*tt*ng look like? Like is it about 'processing?', that what you mean?
Or you talking bout the 'I word'?
Take care,
Muffled
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