Posted by wishingstar on September 4, 2008, at 21:17:34
In reply to And one more thought..., posted by Racer on August 28, 2008, at 15:54:04
I'm sorry for not responding earlier to your wonderful posts. Thank you so much for the support... it was exactly what I need right now. In the past week my world has pretty much come crashing down... I found out that the man I have been close to for many many years and dating for the last 1.5yrs, doesnt love me like he always said he did. Confirmed by him. He's coping with some really terrible things himself right now.. his childhood was quite traumatic and he just seems to have realized it all at once recently and he's having a very hard time coping. Regardless, finding out that he feels the same towards me as his mother, coworkers, etc (again, his statement) has pretty much torn me apart. I saw my evil pdoc today who is the LAST person I'd ever trust and cried in her office. My own T has never even seen me cry... I dont do it. But I'm just a wreck. I didnt go to work today. This is different from depression.. honestly, i'd prefer depression. I know what depression is. This is just sadness, hurt, anger... all normal emotions, but so hard. I called T for an appt today but she didnt have any. Boyfriend is going to therapy of his own next week.. first appt.. and we're going to couples counseling the next week.. first time there too. But really, if he doesnt love me, what can couples counseling do? No one can make someone love someone. I know that it's his problem, not me... his inability to experience emotion in his life basically... but it doesnt make a difference. All i need it to be held, hugged by him, but I cant. We're still "together" but probably not for much longer.
Anyway, that;s why I havent posted in response. I do appreciate your responses very much... my life has just centered around these issues and nothing else for the last several days. Thanks again.
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