Posted by raisinb on May 4, 2008, at 10:47:50
In reply to Re: guess I'm getting there *suicide trigs*, posted by Daisym on May 3, 2008, at 14:21:26
Thank you so much, Daisy.
I think for me, suicide is a response to the overwhelming feeling of "I want out." I just want out. When I am in session, I say that over and over and over and cry. I can't get a break from being myself and living this pointless life. I can't even get a break when I sleep because I don't sleep well, I have terrible nightmares, and when I wake up it all comes crashing down on me that I am still here and I still have to get up and do this. It is just intolerable.
Those other possibilities--a cry for help, a demonstration of just how bad it is--are true too, they are smaller parts of it.
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