Posted by seldomseen on April 18, 2008, at 17:48:15
In reply to Re: Mad as a hornet one minute - the whole story, posted by Dinah on April 18, 2008, at 17:06:05
well, that is what I am hoping against hope for - that he can be flexible. That he understands and most importantly, can respond, to my needs at this time.
I am angry, and not for entirely rational things either, I admit. I also admit that this whole event may have gotten completely twisted and blown way out of proportion in my head and that I'm overreacting.
As I indicated before, if he did offer those off- business hours sessions, there was no way I could have accepted them. (In my angry mindset right now I think he knew I would turn them down thus they were pretty safe on his part to offer - probably a totally irrational thought, but welcome to my world).
But the fact is, I feel how I feel and that is hurt, pushed aside and just overwhelmingly sad. Rational or not, there it is.
I really like my therapist. He is a good guy. He's helped me a lot - no doubt about it. I'm a different person today than I was years ago when I started. Frankly, I love him. Not in a way "like OMG I love you", but a very peaceful kind of love. It's still there, despite all the anger I feel right now.
In fact, two months ago him not being able to see me wouldn't have bothered me much at all.
This is a very complicated issue, that's why I hope we can work something out. Despite all the warnings my stupid, defective brain is sending out I'm going in Monday and we are going to try develop a plan. I feel safer having a contingency plan (seeking help elsewhere) in case we can't.
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