Posted by rskontos on April 18, 2008, at 17:16:56
In reply to Re: Mad as a hornet one minute - the whole story, posted by Dinah on April 18, 2008, at 17:06:05
Seldom, I read your whole story to Sassy and I get how you felt the SA thing. That is how mine has surfaced so far. I physically have re-lived it. Flashbacks with the physically remembrances but not the visual. Boy, I thought I was ready for them and I WAS WRONG. I had told my therapist I wanted the memories that I had dissociated from to come back and wow those physical remembrances were enough to make me so upset that I blocked the visuals. And set myself back, way back. Through this process my sister confirmed for me, I had not talked to her in about 14 years about one of the abusers that i had not suspected. So now I know two family members. And while I know I haven't totally felt it all. No, one of my inners has all that pain. I can go to a place deep inside and feel it but it is too raw right now. But when you described to Sassy, I understood instantly because it is like a deep part of you knows. That is what I told my sister and she said yes you do. You know. She said in a quiet voice that reflected back to me what I was feeling. I wish I could take it away for both of us. And my hope for us is this makes us stronger.
I am so sorry that your T has been this way. Mine has been very supportive although he has some quirks that do upset me from time to time. Sigh, it is a shame they are not perfect.
Do let me know how it goes. But I wanted to share with you how much I am relating to your story right now. Here is too some comfort to you.
rsk
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