Posted by CareBear04 on April 16, 2008, at 23:00:56
In reply to Re: should i walk away from therapy? » CareBear04, posted by raisinb on April 16, 2008, at 9:38:17
hi raisinb--
what did your T say when you told her you felt like you needed to quit to communicate with her?
i know you're right about my T not being able, professionally, to really convince me to stay in therapy. maybe that has something to do with why i want him to do it. occasionally, i have had Ts who have gone above and beyond to keep me afloat. a couple of years ago when i moved back to NY, my previous pdoc called quite a few times just to check in, and we had some lengthy calls. she knew that the change would be hard for me, and until i settled in with my new pdoc, she wanted to make sure i had someone familiar to talk to. i was impressed that she would invest so much effort in someone officially out of her care, time which she wasn't paid for. i had another therapist, a psychologist not even in charge of my meds, who made me call her every night to ensure that i took my lithium when i was really manic and resisted taking it. anyway, these Ts did much more than what was required of them, maybe more even than the profession would endorse. and it did make me feel more worthwhile and more hopeful (btw, you were right on about my feeling hopefully broken and unfixable).
the tough thing about my current situation is that, like you said, my pdoc has given me no reason to believe that he doesn't think i'm worth it. the other day, he asked me how i felt after paging him after hours last week. i told him that i felt guilty about imposing on him, and he said that i wasn't imposing and again that he was glad i called. but i felt like he was ok with it one time but wouldn't necessarily be as ok if i happened to need to call more.
anyway, we'll see how things unfold.
thanks again,
cb
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