Posted by seldomseen on March 26, 2008, at 7:32:41
In reply to Re: it was good :) » sunnydays, posted by 10derHeart on March 25, 2008, at 20:00:51
that's a lot how my therapy went too. Two steps forward, 1.995 steps back.
Security came in baby baby steps.
Right now, after 7 years, I have a mostly solid trusting relationship with my T. He knows me very well and hasn't run out of the room screaming yet. You have no idea how much that means to me.
It takes a lot of guts to step up and even try to trust them, and a huge amount of willingness to absorb hurt, self-doubt and all the other dragons that come along with being vulnerable.
It was like riding a comet, the ride was that wild.
It's so strange but for me it seems that my past had simply obliterated my ability to trust, accept love, or internalize kindness. It had not, however, destroyed my desire for them.
Like most things, it took a tremendous amount of work on my part (and my therapist) to help me to rebuild the ability to realize my desire.
I'm a poster child that therapy can work and that a constant (well, as constant as a human can provide), positive presence can heal even the deepest of wounds.
My only advice is to talk talk talk talk talk. Set nothing as out of bounds. Grab the comet and hang on.
It's worth it.
Seldom.
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