Posted by antigua3 on October 21, 2007, at 10:49:58
In reply to Re: Update on pdoc **csa** » antigua3, posted by ClearSkies on October 20, 2007, at 8:26:13
> First of all was the sense that the appointment was rather rushed, and that you didn't get to discuss all your concerns, or at least not in the depth that they require.
..It wasn't rushed, really, it was just the bomb I dropped five minutes before the end, which is a classic move. We ended up going over the hour to discuss and will pick it up next week.
>So I don't think that your pdoc was able to take the time to really talk about your questions.
..I think you're right because the first half hour was spent on meds; he has reworked them and wanted to know how I was doing.
> The second thing that struck me was that he might have been concerned about triggering you, so his comment about going forward instead of looking back makes some sense....maybe you're right, but I don't think he should be afraid of triggering me. What he wants, I think, is for something in the here and now to trigger something (with him, probably) and then we'd work our way back. But the difference is that I don't need help in dealing with my life--I think I've got that pretty much figured out and recognize triggers that arise in relations with others. I don't need to learn how to "play well with others," my T has done a great job with that. I need help dealing with authoratative men that trigger my feelings for my father. I do know, now, though, that I will never act on these triggers with any other man again. I've learned my lesson. It never works, the attraction is never returned and I'm betrayed by the rejection. I do understand that I may have to go through this with my pdoc in order to heal, and that would be the ultimate therapy.
> His change in demeanor could just be due to his increased awareness and sensitivity to your issues...I hope this is the case.
> I think, if you're able to, listen to what your feelings are telling you about this doctor. Are you ambivalent about his treatment of you? Are you hopeful, are you confident? Do you doubt his consistency?..I'm going to ask him why he changed so much. It does leave open questions about his consistency and fears of betrayal. I think I'm more worried that he will intentionally trigger feelings in me.
thanks for your thoughtful response Clear Skies.
antigua
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