Posted by ClearSkies on October 20, 2007, at 8:26:13
In reply to Update on pdoc **csa**, posted by antigua3 on October 20, 2007, at 7:43:09
I'm kind of running around today, and I hope I give your post the thoughtful reply it deserves. Several things occurred to me about your pdoc's responses to your concerns.
First of all was the sense that the appointment was rather rushed, and that you didn't get to discuss all your concerns, or at least not in the depth that they require. So often with my doctors I get that feeling that I'm getting the best possible care that you can get when you're on an escalator - once you've reached the top of the stairs, it's whoops! out the door and see you next week, call me with any concerns, take care now! So I don't think that your pdoc was able to take the time to really talk about your questions.
The second thing that struck me was that he might have been concerned about triggering you, so his comment about going forward instead of looking back makes some sense. (Doesn't offer any resolution, but makes sense.) Again, time constraints could make a difference here.
His change in demeanor could just be due to his increased awareness and sensitivity to your issues. (Like maybe he took a few moments to review your chart before your appointment, which most doctors don't have the time to do.)
I think, if you're able to, listen to what your feelings are telling you about this doctor. Are you ambivalent about his treatment of you? Are you hopeful, are you confident? Do you doubt his consistency? Not trusting our own feelings is a leftover from childhood trauma, that grownups would not believe our stories. If he's triggering csa memories or feelings in you, then he's also triggering those responses, it would make sense to me. But you CAN trust your feelings and intuition, Antigua, because you're experiencing them now, as an adult, and not as a child.
Lots to think about.
ClearSkies
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