Posted by B2chica on October 18, 2007, at 12:22:38
In reply to Re: Trying to go easy, posted by rskontos on October 18, 2007, at 11:56:04
>>We will get through this holiday season together!!!
ok, so this is my mantra for the season!
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and by the by, i have the same feelings about my 'mother'. it causes me great pains sometimes as i just really feel nothing for her. nothing. as much as she'd like everything to be all 'better' now between us. its just too late for that.
-sometimes i wish....but that only hurts me more. whats done is done.
All i know is you Can't force forgiveness and you can't force love.
so we have to do what we have to do. Right?i just feel like such a horrible person, cuz everyone around me has such great relationships with their mothers and Can't imagine anyone who doesn't. i cant imagine what it would have been like to have a good one.
she took that away from me. and for that i'm angry.
i never had a mommy. i had a 'mother'.i can't change that but i can do one better.
*for my little girl...i'm her mommy, (now and forever my littleone).
poster:B2chica
thread:789793
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20071009/msgs/789952.html