Posted by B2chica on October 10, 2007, at 9:46:46
In reply to Re: and this was only the last 10min of session!, posted by happyflower on October 10, 2007, at 9:26:57
YES...bezeebers fits it quite well. its all just SO weird. i did my normal dissociation thing in session yesterday where i get washed over with tired and heavy, so heavy i can't move, did that for a few minutes i think. then tried to explain that i think what happened is they all want to speak and it cloggs up so i drop. i get paralyzed. and so discussing this T said that maybe thats why 'they' emerged. to release it.sorry if it weird for you kinda pseudo living it through me. i don't mean to upset you or anything. i know you had way worse than me. but you are so nice to me i want to share.
well she tried to talk to each one and tell them it is ONLY ok to come forward in her office, not anywhere else. i think they honestly heard her. but i think they got mad. (didn't tell her that).
last thing she said, well after i dropped to the floor, she waited a few moments and leaned down and wispered thank you, thank you for doing your job...(she meant the old lady...explain later time). and then she said she will see me next week.
earlier she asked if i needed to see her sooner but little one was present and she said no, like always, she doesn't want to be a burden (like i think sometimes too).i'm not sure what to do.
i called her last night right before 5 (just double checked phone to see) and she never called last night. or this morning...i mean i don't want to call her again..
HF i'm sorry i'm goig to cut this short, i'm feeling anger build i think teen, also have an urge to eat pills...im guessing its her. luckily i forgot to bring them today. i think DH took them last night. i'm at work i'm gonna go dive into some MATLAB, maybe that will dull my senses for a while.
I ALREADY CALLED HER ONCE IF THATS NOT ENOUGH I'M NNNOOOTTTT F*CK*NG GONNA BEG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
poster:B2chica
thread:788222
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