Posted by pegasus on May 8, 2007, at 10:37:00
In reply to last session w/ex-T, posted by pegasus on May 4, 2007, at 12:40:00
I just need to get something else in this thread, before I forget it.
I've been thinking about this notion of looking inward to find the answers to my questions about my ex-Ts feelings and thoughts about me. And, you know, that's what I've been doing for so many years. I think it's because I found the answers that I wanted to hear that I had the courage to ask to talk to him again. If I really thought that he didn't care about me, think I was special in some way, miss me at least a little, etc. then I definitely wouldn't be asking him about those things. And, in fact, when I asked him the first time, I didn't ask him *whether* I was special, or *whether* he lost anything when we ended. I asked him *what* was special, and *what* he lost.
So, maybe what this was all about was just wanting to hear him say it. Or wanting some of the details. Like he's been saying, I had the 1000 ft. view, but I had hoped to zoom in on it a little. I think it's the details where I tend to get lost in what he would think of me.
And maybe he did answer those questions.
I appreciate everyone helping me work through this, and all of your encouragement.
peg
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