Posted by Poet on March 24, 2007, at 16:46:26
In reply to Why isn't this me? (long) *suicide trigger*, posted by peddidle on March 24, 2007, at 15:23:45
Hi Pediddle,
I am not in the best emotional state right now, but I wanted to try to respond to your post because being dysthymic I understand being negative, pesimistic, and suicidal.
You wrote: I don't understand why this can't just be the way I am. Why am I not allowed to be this way? No, pessimism, negativity, etc. are not the best qualities to have, but neither are a lot of things. So I'm a pessimist, it's not good, but it's the way I am...why do I HAVE to be an optimist? If everything could be fixed by changing my meds, what am I even in therapy for?
My T suggested that I try an AD, so I think it's pretty standard for them to suggest meds might help. Dr. Clueless always asks if I'm still seeing my therapist, so that leads me to believe that both T and pdoc believe a combination of meds and therapy are right for me. Though at the moment I am not on an AD, I just tapered off Effexor XR. I'm sure T is going to ask me when my next pdoc appointment is, and I suspect she's going to call her before it.
I think your T asked you if you have a suicide plan because she needs to know if you are going to act on it.
It's good that your session wasn't one long fight, I've had enough of those.
Poet
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