Posted by wishingstar on February 16, 2007, at 16:58:30
In reply to dreamed about her last night, posted by wishingstar on February 16, 2007, at 15:16:29
My pdoc finally called. I was all ready to go to the hospital.. I'd put clothes together and everything. Well, he said dont go. He said they wont admit me for feeling like I do.. only if I was more dangerous to myself. Great. Plus he told me who the doc on call is and I HATE him. My doc is going to leave me a perscription for aderrall to pick up on Monday. I think its an odd choice but whatever. It doesnt matter.
Just when I think I cant possibly feel any worse or any more desperate, I prove myself wrong. In all the years I've dealt with depression, I've never, ever felt this bad. I dont think I realized it was possible.
I called Ginny and asked her to call me back. I know, weird given the email I sent, but I'm just desperate. But she most liekly wont get the message until tomorrow.. she said she checks them on days shes not working around noon. Theres a pager number for the counselor on call but its probably not her (there are a lot of counselors) and I dont want to talk to anyone else.
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