Posted by happykat on January 26, 2007, at 11:03:42
In reply to Re: what keeps you going? (my reasons), posted by wishingstar on January 26, 2007, at 9:30:16
wishingstar,
I made several attempts many years ago and can really relate to what you're going through. I think what ultimately pulled me out or kept me from going back was exactly what you have, stubborness. It's a quality that is self-preserving and highly underrated. I had just a sliver of stubborness and just the tiniest bit of will to fight. That's all I needed to eventually claw my way back out. (The appropriate meds also helped)
Also support from others who had been through the same helped. At the time I happened to work in the hospital where I was taken so when coworkers found out they came to see me. And I was overwhelmed by how many of them came to me and told me their own personal stories of tragedy and demons they had battled. Two of my coworkers had historys of depression and attempts and I had no idea.
I kept journals when I was in the hospital and I pulled them out last night after I read your post and reread them. If you're not already keeping a journal, it's a great thing to do so down the road when life is better you can see how far you've come. I'm grateful that I stuck around. I would have missed out on alot of wonderful experiences that were beyond comprehension back then. You truly don't know what tomorrow will bring. Hang in there!
Honor that sliver of stubborness inside yourself, let it help you pull yourself out of the pit. It's a slow process but it will happen.
Be well and Stay safe.
Regards,
happykat
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