Posted by annierose on October 31, 2006, at 20:07:04
In reply to Re: Stress, therapy and guilt, posted by Daisym on October 31, 2006, at 10:19:06
It's interesting how the human mind works. You miss him but you haven't lost him, he's still your T. But I know you mean, the longing, lingering need inside of us seems like it can never get filled up. I think it can and will over time. More and more when I'm with her, I realize that she is just another human being going through various days and degrees of happiness and misery. She just chooses to help others as her career choice. And if I was her friend, I wouldn't feel this way towards her. What I'm trying to say (but can't quite find the right set of words) it's our t's job of undivided attention and active listening that makes them so appealing to our wounded souls.
I think when you (or I for the matter) asked your T to save you from the misery of your life, you are asking him to protect you from it and heal the open wounds from the past --- just as a "good parent" would do naturally.
I know you get it and I thank you for that. When she called me today, she seemed genuine in her desire to help me. (Like that should surprise me).
However, I have decided to cut back to twice a week. Not because I have run out of things to say, but I need to start living my life as a single mother, even though this process may take a while. In other words, I need to save my money. I'm trying hard not to think too hard about this decision, I just need to accept it as a fact of my life.
Thank you.
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