Posted by Lindenblüte on October 8, 2006, at 21:49:39
In reply to Re: Can so be fixed » Jost, posted by Phillipa on October 8, 2006, at 17:06:02
Hi Phillipa,
this is the first time that I've seen you be so open about the history of your pain and your struggles. I'm sorry that you've been through so much.You will never be able to change your past, but what you can work on with a therapist is how to accept it, and how to accept yourself. You have many wonderful, excellent qualities. Things that I wish you would recognize and appreciate before another day goes by. Your age doesn't matter. You are still human, and you still can hurt and you still can heal.
Since you're opening up here, I think it might be time for you- you might be ready to start working on the hard stuff. If you can ride your bike up a big hill, you'll be okay in therapy. It's going to be boring sometimes, and frustrating sometimes. Sometimes the sessions feel endlessly long and pointless, and other times you wish you could just chat all day long. In my experience, I do most of the "work" outside of that office. Things the T says might not "hit" me until hours or months later. I might get a chance to try making a little change right away, the same day- which is gratifying. Other times, the change I know I should make is met with such frightening resistance that I truly believe that it will kill me.
Therapy is the hardest thing I've ever done. I know that you always say I'm young and all that, but therapy is harder than growing up, harder than being married and living halfway across the country from my guy, harder than the side effects from starting cymbalta (ugh), and harder than this whole graduate school thing.
BUT- therapy is changing my life. I hope you get the opportunity to let it change your life too, Phillipa.
(((Phillipa)))
stick around here on the psychology board, let us know how your T-hunt is going.
-Li
poster:Lindenblüte
thread:692740
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060926/msgs/693177.html