Posted by Jost on September 28, 2006, at 14:05:36
In reply to Re: I screwed up... UPDATE, posted by muffled on September 28, 2006, at 10:16:30
> So I apologized. She repeated several times that she doesn't want me to beat myself up over this. I'm sure we will talk about it more next week. I just love talking about my neuroses.
>
> God, it is exhausting being so high maintenance.
>
> ****Me too :-(
> Sigh.
> Dunno why they put up with us.
> But they do :-)
> Thanksfor the update!!!!
> Glad it went ok.
> Muffled~~Muffy, you're so cute. I know why your T puts up with you-- even if you are a "problem child." (And I do mean that in the best way-- you're so right-on-- it's like you have that grasp of the core of things that is really great.)
TherapyGirl, anyway, the work * is * doing this stuff over and over, and each time making a that small step toward handling it better the next time, and next time, and next time. You did so much better than other times. Think back to ten years ago. Is it better now?If not. well time to decide to post here, and let all of us to tell you the things we'll forget when it's our turn to be paranoid and distrustful of people who've put years into showing us over and over that we *can* trust them.
I coulda told you that there was some reason your T had to go to the office-- but you know-- that's the kind of thing you can't believe, with thoughts of her grandchild and your own fears working on you-- but-- when fears arise-- each time, that voice of reality, or sanity, or practical reason gets stronger and stronger, and reminds you more compellingly that: there are other explanations, and you can trust your T, no matter what ambiguous (but seemingly scary) "appearances" are suggesting.
I"m glad your T knows you so well, and is good for you. You're getting there.
Jost
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