Posted by Daisym on September 27, 2006, at 23:20:39
In reply to Re: I screwed up... » TherapyGirl, posted by muffled on September 27, 2006, at 22:17:46
You know, one of my first thoughts was that my mother has been my mother for more than 40 years and I still go nuts with her sometimes. So I suspect that even 21 years with a therapist wouldn't take away all of the insane responses that go with any intense relationship.
Not that I think your response was insane. It would hurt my feelings to know that my therapist chose his grandchild over me, even if intellectually I know it is OK and that the two don't actually form that equation. And with that lingering fear of "I'm a hard client, she must be relieved to not have to see me" - seeing the car would make me upset too. What is cool, is that you had the courage to call her right up and honestly tell her that you were upset and why. I would have hid under my bed for weeks and pouted about it.
When she calls, (if she hasn't by now) - be honest. Apologize if you feel the need. Tell her how important she is to you. Own your stuff about assuming the worst. Ask her to be very clear in the future.
It is soooooo much easier to give advice to others about their therapy relationships than to make sense out of our own. That is why I suggested to All Done that once per year, we all switch around and visit each others therapists. Now wouldn't THAT be interesting!
It will be Ok...your relationship is strong. Forgive yourself.
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