Posted by Jost on September 7, 2006, at 16:28:32
In reply to Re: Falling off the pedestal, posted by Dinah on September 7, 2006, at 0:48:14
> Gack. That was overly negative.
>
> See, my therapist didn't start out on that high a pedestal, and he fell quite a bit, so I'm sure it's different altogether.
>
>Wow. I'm glad you aren't being negative, Dinah!
Cause if I were your T, I'd think I'd landed under water, or in a pit, in front of my stepladder? :) (I'm teasing, okay? don't be mad or too mad at me)
Seriously, though-- I thought about this today, when my T was slightly getting on my nerves--
when I've needed him to save me from myself, it's been scary-- because no one can do that-- and I think therefore I made him extremely important, and attributed powers to him-- although not ones that I really thought I could find or get him to use--
It's not at all strange to want to believe that someone has the power to heal you-- and to have a hard time accepting that if they do-- it's only slowly, and with a lot of your own self-healing-- sometimes it's so hard to live with the fact that they can't just reach out and change you--
or that there are these aporia (wow, I actually used this word, I never thought that littleoldme would just come up with a sentence that had it--okay, I have something to feel good about)-- (you had to be in grad school in certain subjects to know why I think that)
and no one can wish them away, or avoid them-- even though they sometimes really swallow everything around them-- or seem to
Jost
poster:Jost
thread:683806
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20060826/msgs/684018.html