Posted by llrrrpp on August 31, 2006, at 15:18:43
In reply to Re: Ouch my head hurts » llrrrpp, posted by muffled on August 30, 2006, at 22:39:09
> ***Yeah, my T says I have an anxiety attack practically everytime I go. But it passes.
> Last week I came in and headed for the bathroom, and she popped out and said come on in when your done. Well, like the meathead I am I sat in the hallway around the corner where it was dark, and listened to a song that helps me feel safer on my mp3 player. She came looking for me. I felt SO DUMB!!! She just smiled.nice. I like that.
>
> ***OH MAN ! You are on the same thot train as I.
> Actually, as part of our song and dance at sessions, she usu asks 'how are you' (as I squirm in my chair not looking at her), I ALWAYS say 'fine'.
> I am SO freakin ridiculous. If I was fine I wouldn't be there.
> And I never have waterineye. Cuz that would be bad. I dunno why. I just know it would be very, very bad.
> Sometimes my T will get a bit of waterineye, and it freaks me, cuz I don't know why its there. But mostly I won't even look at her.
> At the beginning of session she often reads to me a short devotional type thing. THATS when I sneak a good look at her to see if she looks like SHE is ok.
> I am SO RIDICULOUS.
> I am a grown woman.
> Yeah. So I feeling kinda wacked too.
> I gonna send my T an e-mail that says I ain't gonna say nuttin more.
> Nothing, nothing, nothing.
> She can just read, and I can peek out under my hat at her, and for a bit of time, feel kinda safer somehow? Dunno whats that about.
> Verbose aren't I?
> Your post just so got me.
> Take care,
> Muffled
>
>Mufflie, if it weren't so true, it wouldn't be funny and tragic at the same time. Muffled, I will think of you next time I approach the dreaded edifice. next time I feel like procrastinating until literally the last second. arriving just in the nick of time. Can I come in the window or something? avoid the whole check-in protocol? I'd happily teletransport to therapy. Upload myself on the T's server and he can download me when he feels he can do some work with me.
Oh god. I just sent him an email. first one since May. now I'm on high alert for stuff in my inbox.
give me a wooden spoon, and I'll show him the appropriate tool to scoop out my brains. e-mail is not suited to brain scooping at all.
((((who am I hugging? I'm not "feeling" today, remember?))))
no offense Muffled, I turned off my emotions in my sleep yesterday. woke up in no pain, and no happiness either. Just a lump of carbon. Sea slugs have more emotions than I do today.
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