Posted by llrrrpp on August 26, 2006, at 22:22:23
In reply to Re: late last night **SI, abuse » llrrrpp, posted by ElaineM on August 26, 2006, at 18:00:26
> Thanks for the hugs LL. Sorry, I was all ready to respond before, and then I got worked up about T. He's really the first worry that comes to mind. (and also the first solution, but that's nothing new
> That's why T is so important. He's the only "adult" support I have. That's why I can't stand losing him, but I can't stand everything getting just as messed up as it was with everyone else in my life. I'm so sad to lose the safeness I thought he was offering -- it's not the same thing now. =:::(
Sweetie, there are a lot of aspiring adults on psychobabble who support you through this time in your life. I'm sorry that we only interact over p-babble. I'd bring you ice cream, and we'd watch DVD's and be silly together. If you felt up to it, we could even go to the mall or the gym or throw a bbq picnic. well, I only have my words, and you only have your words, so we'll just try our best.
> ((((LL)))), I'm so glad that I haven't made you hate me yet. Please tell me when I say something stupid, or am acting ridiculous. And tell me when my writing is not making sense. My brain is so scattered lately. I'm sorry if I say something wrong.Ha! I am quite forgiving, in general. I look on the bright side. I'm a natural Pollyanna. I was pushing you a bit on your folks, because I didn't understand. I *thought* that maybe you weren't letting them help you, because you were ashamed of yourself, or perhaps because you didn't want them to worry about you. No, your parents are not going to be there for you. If they harmed you so much as a child and young adult, they shouldn't have access to you now when you are vulnerable. No one deserves to be called terrible things like that. Your parents don't deserve credit for raising a young woman with your heart, and your generosity. They don't deserve credit for raising a person of honesty and sensitivity who can make those around her resonate her emotions, simply by using her eloquent writing. So screw them. But just because your parents didn't give you what every baby deserves doesn't mean that others cannot love you too.
When you're up for it, you will make friends again. You're at that transition point in your life. Most of your college friends are off doing their things as newly minted adults, and so they are not in the right frame of mind to help out someone from their past. My BEST friends from college call me about once a year, tops. I have no ED, so no hospitalization or anything to blame for increasing distance between once close friends. It's a condition of modern living. Young people are lonelier than ever. Few people to count on for basic things, like getting locked out of the apt. Forget about having a friend to check up on you when you're in the hospital with a life-threatening illness. Elaine- you're starting new, fresh. In a way, it's good that you have a T to help you through this transition, but when you're up for it, you will make some other friends too.
> Thank you for talking to me -- If you ever feel like I'm infecting you then don't anymore, but I'm glad that you still are now :-)
>Well, sometimes I don't feel up to answering posts on some topics. I just don't know what to say, or I'm afraid of saying the wrong thing. Or I'm afraid of writing something generic, like hugs or whatever. If I don't FEEL something by a post- it's not the poster's "fault", rather it's just because my personality or my motivation is not quite suited to respond. Or I'm just plain lazy.
I've tried to stay away from talking about your relationship with your T, for instance. I don't know much about T-client relationships at all, having never experienced one, or even imagined myself experiencing one. I don't know what to say? But, I think there are a lot of other dimensions to your situation that inspire my cabernet marinated brain this evening...
hugs to you, and hoping your teeth are not too painful this evening. I've been flossing a lot lately. My gums protested at first, but lately they've been pretty chill...
(((((((Elaine)))))))
-ll
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