Posted by ElaineM on June 30, 2006, at 21:09:36
In reply to Re: yesterday at the clinic **triggers** » ElaineM, posted by sleepygirl on June 29, 2006, at 22:52:05
Thanks guys. (SG: How nice of you to call me brave - I would like to be so.) I just know I would not have even tried if I hadn't got all of your encouragement. And when I had to leave the clinic feeling more silenced than ever, it helped a little to know that I could at least tell you all how upsetting it was.
It is hard for me to explain all my fears about my treatment trail, cause I'm worried that the few regulations I do know of, would give away where I'm posting from (I don't know why I'm so paranoid about that, but I am). There are certain circumstances where Drs can talk to other Drs without "express consent". And I guess I also worry how much this duty-to-report "sexual abuse" over-rides all versions of privacy (my talking to another, my files, my physician, I can't really know where it ends). The number she gave me was from the website I had already found. I suppose I could call one day to ask questions, but I don't have it in me right now. I wish I knew someone from my area who had done all this before.
As far as not going with him tomorrow, I hinted that I didn't think I could make it, and he said that was fine because his son was coming to visit anyways. So, I'm proud I said it, but he probably would've cancelled himself if I waited till the end of the session. And I let him sit with his arm around me when I was talking instead. (that was harder than turning down his invitation) But it was fine I guess. And my sis is coming tomorrow so I won't have to think about other stuff. She doesn't believe in psychiatry and hates all my problems - so we never even mention things like that. We're not close but the change in routine will be nice.
EL
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