Posted by fairywings on June 16, 2006, at 21:22:40
In reply to Re: can professionals keep this a secret? » fairywings, posted by ElaineM on June 16, 2006, at 19:17:32
Hi Elaine,
I think a lot of people worry about T's reading here. I'd guess statistically it's unlikely, but I understand the worry. I think people are very concerned about you and the situation, not frustrated.
Is your T's practice busy? How frequently do you see him? How long have you seen him? Are you making strides since you've been seeing him? Are you seeing him for your appts. when no one else is around? Does he ever bring up that you haven't been able to pay his normal fee?
It's concerning that you seem to question your self worth based on how he is with you each week. I know it must feel good to be held and shown all the attention when you feel so alone, but is it possible that by asking to hold you/touch you one week, and not doing it the next it's making you feel insecure and vulnerable? Do you have some sense of satisfaction when he wants you, and a sense that something's horribly wrong with you when he doesn't?
I hope I haven't been too aggressive - I don't mean to. I"m just hoping you'll make decisions that will benefit you and not hurt you.
fw
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