Posted by asmita on February 15, 2006, at 18:00:10
In reply to Re: on knowing 'too much' about your T, posted by LadyBug on February 15, 2006, at 14:54:48
at first it was kind of a disappointment/ relief to know that he's not the perfect person i made him out to be in my imagination. but my feelings are still the same! that's the confusing bit. i do sometimes feel like i'm deceiving him, and i get paranoid about him maybe finding out that i've been snooping. i'm sure he'd be freaked out, just the thought of it makes my skin crawl. i'm determined to stop though, because it's become like a habit to check his website and posts... and it's having way too much effect on me. when i just started doing it and found out some disappointing stuff, his opinions that i really didn't agree with, or tidbits about his love life...i was just feeling angry and let down. the strange thing is, i can't keep feeling like that for too long when i actually see him. it's like he's a different person at work...the person i'm still hopelessly attracted to. yeah, it's really weird. i wish i could just concentrate on getting the most out of therapy rather than wondering about my T all the time.
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