Posted by asmita on February 15, 2006, at 17:43:34
In reply to Re: on knowing 'too much' about your T, posted by Dia on February 15, 2006, at 13:09:53
dia, wow! how'd you find out his password? and i thought i was the expert at internet-snooping...i'm impressed. but even though the stuff i found on my T online was open to the public (that was my 'excuse' at first) i realise that it was still a violation, esp. since i went way out of my way to find it and kept checking back. i hope i can stop doing it, i'm feeling really guilty too.
i know it's really frustrating to keep going back and forth between thinking he's secretly harboring similar feelings and thinking he finds you unattractive- i do exactly the same, sometimes i change my mind several times within one session which makes things pretty confusing.
i've kind of come to the conclusion that my T likes me in the sense that he feels like a father figure to me (though he's not old enough to be my father...'only' 10 years older), but then sometimes he says things that make me feel like he's attracted to me... truth is, it's his 'fatherly' ways that i'm attracted to the most...like when he makes me feel like he really wants to take care of me, that's so incredibly touching to me...i guess because i haven't felt like that with a lot of people. in other ways he is just so wrong for me...based on things i found out online. but, apparently, that doesn't stop me from having these feelings for him.i had a crazy thought...i could go see another T about my 'obsession' with this T...and then form an obsession with that one...and see another T about that obsession....etc...lol. i guess the only way to get over it though is to tell your T about your feelings...maybe some day we'll be able to.
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