Posted by alexandra_k on February 5, 2006, at 1:53:00
In reply to Re: ((((((alexandra K)))))))))))))) » alexandra_k, posted by muffled on February 4, 2006, at 18:31:08
thank you muffled, you are very sweet :-)
i was going to post today but the day just flew out from under me. tomorrow... there is always tomorrow. best for me to not get too caught up in politics too. especially since i don't really know what i'm talking about (sssh don't tell auntiemel and co ;-)> ****I always feel bad when I can't write.
yeah. me too. maybe i can't write so i feel bad? but then i manage okay at other times... i don't know.
> ***its hard to be in conflict :-(
yep. and i have been feeling it :-(
'losing time'
which is half remembered...
who am i kidding i think i remember most of it...
i just don't want to :-(
but... i'm okay, eh?
thanks so much.
> **** You drink.not usually. but have been trying... trying to be social and stuff...
> Or other stuff too?
for preference yeah...
> Binging is the worst. Really used to wreck me. I would be so disoriented for days afterwards.
mmm. wrecks me for a good day.
and thats not so helpful when everyone is back on it the following day :-(
i think... maybe i'm getting old... or something...> > randoms. well... just the one. :-( not happy of myself. not proud. might bite me yet :-(
> ***hope nothe came back today. he is quite nice actually ;-)
and he speaks english not too bad too ;-)> > and the anger / rage at community mental health is flaring up too. i guess cause i'm fragile.
> ***just proly getting generally overwhelmed I suppose....yeah. i think that is it. feeling a lot more fragile than usual.
> ***It can pass. Remember all the bad stuff, the scarey stuff BEFORE you drink. Link the bad stuff together with the thot of drinking.
yeah. it is just that the drinking helps with the social anxiety :-(
> Alex...I dunno what to say 'cept we care bout you here. You can talk or not talk. And you can talk all about yourself and not post to anyone else and thats ok too. Cuz sometimes we just don't have it in ourselves to help others, we too busy just trying to survive ourselves. But that shouldn't stop a person from posting if it helps them.
thank you muffled. (((((muffled))))))
> Take care Alex. You OK.
you take care too. you are okay too, you know :-)
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